Saturday, October 17, 2009

Let's See....

Okay, The End is turning up to almost everything I almost wanted. Relationship, friends, no girl phobia, getting a chance to go to the magnificently beautifully nature full seaside of the awesome Kuantan, more.....more....MORE!!!!!!!

I promised I would not waste my End by sitting in front of a computer screen or TV, by now....well, it's shaping up QUITE well. I apologize to the people who I can't and I would NEVER ever go back to them, no matter what happens. You see, if I did go back it'll make my life turn into another rolling ball of fermenting d!ck cr@p. So please let it go, don't look back, you're doing us both the favor of the better choice. Well, at least I have my life just the way I always loved to right the damn now.

Anyways, onto a more subtle and interesting note, I'd love to go and jump down a cliff.

Saturday, October 3, 2009

It's Over

.......for now.

I've been thinking lately and yes, it is time to move along. I don't really understand why people do blogging, for publicity, for a centre of relief, for whatever the reason might be, I don't get it. They look so happy in person, their successful in life, got all the things they want and more but still they write about how bad life takes them on spins. It just makes me sick, I'm here rock-bottom and all, crapping it all out my feelings to my best friend, something blogging can't and will not take away. Blogs are coated in lies and sprinkled on the sugary deceitfulness in which I hope this one won't like the rest of the pack.

So, I'll take this in a different way, no more life stories, no more crying over spilled milk and licking up the excess of it trying to save what is left of it.

I'm drinking lemonade this time.

Sure, people hate me for what I am, still I have to thank them for showing me who my real friends are now. I'm flawed, scarred and all that random crap, but I'm still breathing and with that every last breath of mine I'll continue on to live. At least, not for me, but for them, my friends, I wouldn't want to see them worrying over me.

To enhance my life this time around, I've made a list of things to do in the holidays to make sure I'll go on with life meaningfully. Hey, it's no bucket list but it'll do just fine.