Last Christmas

Last Christmas I had no heart, but the next two days I gained it anyway.

Last Christmas the nights were still yet the nights were filled with lights galore.

Last Christmas sat on a couch and stared into a square box of light.

Well, that's a poetic thing. Anyway, school's about to start and I plan to go through it just by breezing through it and letting time take over. I miss Christmas already and it's not just for the merry cheers and nifty presents laying under the Christmas tree. I missed a chance to talk with a girl who thought I was a freak, missed a chance to say goodbye to my friends, missed a chance to bid farewell and so on.

Time is such a silly thing, it's never in one's hand yet people say,' Take good care on how you manage your time.' What is time? I don't know, I remember reading once from somewhere that time is just an illusion, it isn't real. But, if it isn't real then why are we enslaved to the passing of moments which is time?

When we're enjoying ourselves, time pass us by as fast as a speeding train heading for the next stop. But when we are sad, miserable, time seems to flow so slow that one second feels like the rest of eternity. I guess that's just how it was meant to be, it was always to be so. And I feel like I wasted my whole year, to let time itself that I let it pass me by.

I love God, if it wasn't for Him, I think I wouldn't last until this moment. I really miss church, feels like my home, friends there don't care what I was and take me in, pray for me, I am and will be forever grateful to Him and them.

I'll be the person I hope I'll be as it comes to me. I won't cry no more, I know that I'm over-emotional but I try not to cry anymore.

Life goes on and I really wished it would stop for me, but I know it won't. So here's to my next life story


Cheers.

Fine, You Are

7 As, I hate this crap!!!!!!!! I want to jump down a cliff now!
Oh well, didn't update in like half a millennium that, maybe fish had already started to evolve into flying elephants or jumping fire ants.

Curse YOU PMR!!!!!

Well, to summarize it all, broke up the hook up, camp to happiness, kuantan cold, church nice, God rules all, wasted opportunities and no more going to the sanctuary.

Yupp......FXXK it. I love my stupid life, and I'm lazy to write down all the details but yeah, my life sucks that much that I would kick my own behind with a gun nozzle and smile like a tormented fried duck....with pride.

I Love You, I Love You, I Love You

Yes, I love you, I love you, I love you 2008. But what the heck, its over so let's move on. Well, I went to Kuantan with my best bud for 4 days, got ashtma (so awesome its just like taking drugs just without the hang over) for 4 days.

Elim Church Camp was awesome! So fun....so FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh well, time to go run the shop.

Posting Crap About Crap

Going to start writing again, a new story brought up from new ideas, going to try to finish this one, high hopes suckers.

Been so long since how far I came to be, I'm no good person, I know it, embrace it, try to change it. No matter what, I'm still what I perceive to be, what I never changed has altered me to become something much more different than what I thought I would be. Crap, I don't care.

If its brought me this far I'd still go for longer than a thousand miles to make me break down. Not this time, I go up than fall deep.

School sucks kangaroo balls, it makes me sick to attend that dreaded stench deranged pigsty. Pn. t0i\1G is getting on everyone's nerves, I'd be glad to stick a cucumber up her mouth to shut her up.

Let's See....

Okay, The End is turning up to almost everything I almost wanted. Relationship, friends, no girl phobia, getting a chance to go to the magnificently beautifully nature full seaside of the awesome Kuantan, more.....more....MORE!!!!!!!

I promised I would not waste my End by sitting in front of a computer screen or TV, by now....well, it's shaping up QUITE well. I apologize to the people who I can't and I would NEVER ever go back to them, no matter what happens. You see, if I did go back it'll make my life turn into another rolling ball of fermenting d!ck cr@p. So please let it go, don't look back, you're doing us both the favor of the better choice. Well, at least I have my life just the way I always loved to right the damn now.

Anyways, onto a more subtle and interesting note, I'd love to go and jump down a cliff.

It's Over

.......for now.

I've been thinking lately and yes, it is time to move along. I don't really understand why people do blogging, for publicity, for a centre of relief, for whatever the reason might be, I don't get it. They look so happy in person, their successful in life, got all the things they want and more but still they write about how bad life takes them on spins. It just makes me sick, I'm here rock-bottom and all, crapping it all out my feelings to my best friend, something blogging can't and will not take away. Blogs are coated in lies and sprinkled on the sugary deceitfulness in which I hope this one won't like the rest of the pack.

So, I'll take this in a different way, no more life stories, no more crying over spilled milk and licking up the excess of it trying to save what is left of it.

I'm drinking lemonade this time.

Sure, people hate me for what I am, still I have to thank them for showing me who my real friends are now. I'm flawed, scarred and all that random crap, but I'm still breathing and with that every last breath of mine I'll continue on to live. At least, not for me, but for them, my friends, I wouldn't want to see them worrying over me.

To enhance my life this time around, I've made a list of things to do in the holidays to make sure I'll go on with life meaningfully. Hey, it's no bucket list but it'll do just fine.